Running is my stress relief. It provides me with the opportunity to walk (or run) away from life's frustration, anxiety, sadness, and disappointment.
So what do I do when I can't run?
Wallow. Seethe. Cry. Lash out. Pout.
I don't even want to be near me.
It's like being on a taper multiplied by a 100. Or day 2 of a caffeine detox. Or when you've been visiting family for over 4 weeks, have slept in 5 different places, and haven't been able to run in over a week. Oh wait; that's exactly what's happening to me.
Not being able to run, especially in some of my favorite places, has been harder then I had imagined. It's almost painful to see other runners sweating, breathing hard, and enjoying their runs when I'm stuck in civilian clothes and only sweating because its hot.
Life is hard and it's harder when you have no outlet. Dear knee. please hurry up and heal.
I don't know what your particular knee issue is, but I have dealt with pretty severe runner's knee. It was so painful at its worst that even ONE stride hurt. And I have been through every one of the emotions you listed. I know exactly how you're feeling.
ReplyDeleteHang in there! It took a lot of physical therapy for me to be able to even just do the couch to 5k plan, which I'm doing right now. I KNOW how hard it is to wait when you just want to hit that pavement.
thanks for the words of encouragement, Elizabeth. I think the hardest part of all of this is that this seemingly came out of no where. I ran 10 miles that morning and it was perfectly fine and now I can't run at all. I've made an appt. with the Dr so hopefully we can figure out what happened and how to fix it. Good luck with your C25k plan :)
DeleteOh I hate that! Sending good vibes!
ReplyDeletethank you Kate! I appreciate it.
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